The last couple of days, I've been passing by a collection of strange feelings and experiences.
I felt that my inside was exposed to an earthquake.
And after thinking, thinking and thinking. For a successive complete 4 days with their days and nights.
I feel that I've learnt a lot and a lot, and I think the lessons of these experiences are unforgettable, because I woke up to look behind and find another things, that I've been doing, they are not mistakes, but they were not the best actions that could have been taken.
So, this time I am summaring what I wished I could have done other than what I already did. It's not that I am regreting what I've done or what I didn't do, but it's just clarifying to myself what I need to have in order to become what I wanna be, with myself and with the others.
I felt that my inside was exposed to an earthquake.
And after thinking, thinking and thinking. For a successive complete 4 days with their days and nights.
I feel that I've learnt a lot and a lot, and I think the lessons of these experiences are unforgettable, because I woke up to look behind and find another things, that I've been doing, they are not mistakes, but they were not the best actions that could have been taken.
So, this time I am summaring what I wished I could have done other than what I already did. It's not that I am regreting what I've done or what I didn't do, but it's just clarifying to myself what I need to have in order to become what I wanna be, with myself and with the others.
There are some people around me whom I see as flags for telling me what's is right or what is wrong. I know that there is nothing absolutely right and another absolutely wrong. But in other words, I SEE THEM AS RIGHT or there deeds just convinces me and this just what matters. And So I may be taking them as models, None of these characters is exactly what I wanna be and SO, I just want to be like X in such and like Y in Such.
But I am afraid of losing my real self, I want to be MYSELF and not anyone else, I want to put my touch even in the things I like in others I need to DO IT MY WAY.
I neither want to stop still and keep on hating some of the things about myself, nor I want to enter the dilemma of taking X as a Model and losing my real me.
ANYWAYS.
I am just happy, because of the strong will I am having now in order to achieve what I want, Second because I put my priorities. Hope to fulfill what I want. Hope to reach the ME that I wanna be.
I Really want to Start Over
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