احلم

احلم يا شباب مصر...
احلم .. ولا نسيت ازاي بيكون الحلم
الحلم أصبح رفهية..و إنت مش بتاع رفهية
معندكش خلاص وقت تحلم.. منتش فاضي .. بتعافر فالحياة
بتعافر عشان تعيش... عيشة البني آدم ..
أي بني آدم.. بسيط كان أو أقل من البسيط
المهم إنه  بني آدم.. قادر يعيش..
قادر لو عيي يتعالج.. و قادر يتعلم عشان يفهم
و قادر يشتغل عشان يقتات

بس تحلم ليه... هو إنت إيه حلمت بيه و اتحقق..
بلد ناسية انك بني آدم... بلد ناسية انك انسان...
بلد نسياك أصلاً..

حقولك تحلم.. و تصحى تتخض من الواقع..
تحلم .. و تصحى على كابوس عايش

بس أرجع و أقولك .. ما إنت لازم تحلم..
جايز الحلم يتحقق..
أكيد هتفكر في طريقة ..تخلى الحلم يتحقق

احلم... اهو عيش لك لحظة في خيالك..
جايز تقدر تنسيك احوالك

ليه

ليه ساعات بنحب ناس من غير سبب... من غير ما نشوف منهم...لا حلو و لا وحش...و العكس صحيح.. ناس بتلاقى فى بينك و بينهم...صور الصين العظيم؟؟

ساعات الاحساس بيتبدل...و بعد الحب بتباة عداوة...او العكس

 

History is still not a History

I was shocked when I found that the last time I talked loudly in my dear blog... was nearly 2 years ago.

This proves that I can't complete my life without it.. because it's the only thing available to me all the time and will understand me like I am ...

Ok... Let me talk now about why do I feel like writing to my blog.

I discovered yesterday... that I have not been cured from the relation that has been terminated from 6 years.. yes 6 years.. I was shocked as well... Time flies and our life is consumed too quickly.

Let me confess that I still have feelings towards that person, I opened our chat logs yesterday, and like I opened Pandora's box ... I waked up the feelings and the thoughts... I am resisting myself and asking myself to to initiate any communication again, let me stop hurting myself with my own hands... I dun know whether I'll succeed in that or now... but I am sure my dignity will help me .. because I value it so much.

What if analysis is non stopping in my mind from yesterday... and I see all the roads are closed ...

So why I am thinking about it and revived it again ... I dun know .. and I am afraid of it..

I know I was quietly rejected before and I can't take any further risks with my heart and my pride...

But I miss the relation .. I miss the person .. I know this separation was going to happen one day ..but I always prayed it may not happen .. I was ok with having the person in my life.. regardless of the relation type... but I couldn't have that either....

Get out of my mind and soul peacefully please... enough what I had experienced... I know you think you are out already... but this is not the truth... I can't deny you made your part.... but I still didn't do mine...I wish I have the power to do it.