A very Challenging Relationship

It's a relationship, in which we play hide and seek.
I sometimes get tired of the game but, now I am actively and willingly and happily enjoying the chase.
But Chasing is very challenging...I want to reactivate the relation, and preserve it.. I am just happy having that person around...
I want to keep the relation...whatever the relation is defined as ...
Your features, are just the ones I love ...
Your cons are mine and I accept you the way you're...and, I am not able to see them as defects originally.
Your pros are the ones that I love to have in a person, and the ones that I can't live without.
For me you're just perfect ...the right person of all times and for all my life.

Life

Dear Life,
If I said that I understood you, then I haven't known you well. I am just taking notes of you, dun know whether taking those notes does have any meaning or no, as you're very creative and renewing yourself always.
Note number One: Nothing lasts, and no one either
Note number two: Wanting something and working for it, does not guarantee having

The Sky and the Clouds

What a peaceful scene it is ... the baby blue sky with the cotton like clouds decorating the scene ..such a wonderful and relaxing scene.
You just look at the sky and see how beautiful it is .. whenever the sky is that clear and beautiful .. usually the air is fresh and refreshing .. just a deep breath with that fresh air will make you more and more relaxed. This relaxing mode, usually bring with it nice thoughts just like the beautiful scene above in the sky ... either your memory begin moving quietly like the clouds getting nice memories from the past that connects you with your beloved ones or great hopes that carries you to the promising future .. promising as the sun with all the warmness and light.

I Dreamt of you :))

Yes, it was a very nice dream, I wished it was true, and I wished I kept dreaming and didn't have to wake up to go work.
I dreamt you were buying a house near our's and that you brought me very nice cadeaux, the ones that I like the simple ones that I just can be perfectly happy with.
The cadeaux included chocolate, it was toblerone IN DISGUISE :D .. shaklaha kan 3ageeb shewaya...
And also, the ones that I like the most was a box full of colored wooden, butterflies, and the circluar flowers that I like with the colors that I love baby blue and pinkish.. I was flying from the idea of you getting me something, from the surprise of seeing you, and from the BEAUTIFUL things that were inside the box :)

Make a Wish =)

Today, I received an e-mail from "Causes", at the end of it was a "Make a Wish" button, to create a Cause for something that I would love to help.

Regardless of the reason behind the mail, and regardless of that it's just an automated mail that is sent to me and to many other people... I dun know why I was so touched by these words that were written on the button "Make a Wish"...this magical sentence had its effect on me, and it peneterated my mind, my soul and my heart and let me think, think and think ...
I guess that it's a very nice feeling that all you have to do is just to wish, dun worry about the HOW the possible and the impossible, just wish, feeling deep inside that the wish has its opportunity to come true.

What about hearing the word "Make a Wish" .. is that you feel that somebody's taking care of your wish, and is helping you in accomplishing what you want and is "SHARING" you your wishes. What makes this sentence has that effect is that you feel that someone willingly offered to take the job of making it come true. may be this is because Human is capable of helping others than helping oneself, hence that's why it has that's magical effect on us as it carries an implicit hope or a guarantee for fulfillment and coming true.
Or, may be we are just comforted with sharing our dreams.

NonSense

Ana ta3bana w zah2ana w mesh 3arfa ana 3ayza walla 3arfa ana momken a3mel eih 3ashan atbeset 7assa en ana 3andy 7alet rekoood, fel fekr wel maghood wel 7amas.
Helpless may be.... want things to turn to the better alone without me helping in anything..mesh 3ashan 7aga bas mesh adra 7assa eny me7taga a3mel hibernate l 7ayaty
w lamma agy a2oom ba2a ISA ab2a a3mel repair
ay kalam mesh hay7sal w ahy ta7'areeef w 7'allas .. bas 7assa eny 3ayza a2ool ay kelmeteen gayez l robama astaraya7 aw 3al a2al 3ayza abtedy ada3bed gowaya gayez awsal l ay 7aga

Really Sorry

I dun know what to say, but first of all, I am really deeply sorry for all the victim's of yesterday's explosion and all their families.

I am speechless, because SORRY IS NOT ENOUGH, by my nature, I would have approached my friends who are between Sad, Angry, Frustrated, or just Giving Up that anything could get any better. I would have tried to highlight anything good, and help them to hope for the better.

But, this time I just can't do this...because, I am just feelin the same .. or at least I just believe that I am feeling so


The issue is not small, and it's recurrent.

I can't imagine, people are in the church, worshiping God in their own way, and during the time of the feast. And then a BLACK.BLIND.BOMB just ruins the expected awaited happiness in the feast time of a little child, that may have lost a mother or a father or both in that explosion.

I am seeing that girl when she grows up... in everytime she misses her parents or one of them .. this missing is going to be turned to hatred to the other .. which we can't blame her for.

Really, the families of these victims, need coaching to be able to live normally with the others.
And also the environment needs to be reformed in many ways. So, that all of us can feel safe.. and YES i see that the security wasn't enough, but ALSO i believe that their shouldn't be guards aslan for the Worshiping Houses, it should be the most safe and secured place, without any external security...The value of these places should be known to all and should be respected.

I am sorry FOR the innocent people and their families, but not sorry on behalf of those criminals, because I dun know who they are.. but all what I am sure of is that I am totally unrelated to them.. so it's a shame to talk with their name aslan.

I am sorry, sad, wanna close my eyes and open it and see us learning from this horrible experience....TOGETHER facing those extremists and/OR strangers who for sure are full of hatred and all negative feelings to this country and all its people.

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Wondering

While working and listening to "Mesh Faraa Maay" by fayrooz ... I wondered does it not really matter ?!!!

I know it's not true... and it does matter. But, I am just convincing myself with the opposite .. and I know I am not successful in that brainwashing task I am doing to myslef especially after that dream that I had today .. I dreamt with you, and I was very upset when I woke up and find that it was just a dream.

انـــا وليـــــــــــلى

ماتت بمحراب عينيك ابتهالاتي



واستسلمت لنداء الياس راياتي


جفت على بابك الموصود ازمنتي


ليلى وما اثمرت شيئاً نداءاتي






عامان مارف لى لحن على وتر


ولا استفاقت على نور سماواتي


اعتق الحب فى قلبي واعصره


فأرشف اللهم فى مغبر كاساتي






ممزق انا






لا جاه


ولا ترف


يغيرك فى فخليني لآهاتي


لو تعصرين سنين العمر اكملها


لسال منها نزيف من جراحاتي


لو كنت ذا ترف


ما كنت تاركة حبي


لكن عسر الحال ضعف الحال


فقر الحال مأساتي






عانيت عانيت


لاحزاني ابوح به


ولست تدرين شيئاً عن معاناتي






امشي واضحك ياليلي مكابرة


على اخبي عن الناس احتضاراتي


لا الناس تعرف ما امري فتعذرني


ولا سبيل لديهم فى مواساتي


يرسو بعينيك حرمان يمص دمي


ويستبيح اذا شاء ابتساماتي


معذورة انت ان اجهضت لى املي


لا الذنب ذنبك بل كانت حماقاتي


اضعت فى عرض الصحراء قافلتي


وجئت ابحث فى عينيك عن ذاتي


وجئت احضانك الخضراء منتشياً


كالطفل احمل احلامي البريئات


غرست كفك تجتثين اوردتي


وتسحقين بلا رفق مسراتي






واغربتاه


مضاع هاجرت مدني حسني


وما ابحرت منها شراعاتي






نفيت واستوطن الاغراب فى بلدي


ودمروا كل اشيائى الحبيبات


خانتك عيناك


فى زيف وفى كذب


ام غرك البهرج والخداع مولاتي






فراشة جئت القى كل اجنحتي


لديك فأحترقت ظلماً جناحاتي


اصيح والسيف مزروع بخاصرتي


والغدر حطم آمالي العريضات






وانت ايضاً الا تبت يداك


اذا اثرت قتلي واستعذبت اناتي


من لى بحذف اسمك الشفاف من لغتي


اذن ستسمى بلا ليلى حكاياتي

عيشها كدة زى ما هى

لو هعيط ... فانا هعيط اوى ... بس انا مش هعيط ... عشان حتى العياط مبأش بيريحنى ... و حتى الكتابة ... بقالى كتيير مكتبتش حاجة من جواية بجد لانى مش عايزة افكر... مش عايزة اشوف ولا عايزة احس ولا عايزة اعقل اللى حواليا... عشان متعبش اكترما انا اصلا تعبانة.

ابتلاء الله دائما يكون فيه رحمة ... دايما فى عز الازمة تجيلك رسالة من ربنا تقوللك انا واقف جنبك و معاك و قريب منك و حاسس بيك. حاجة بتديك قوة و تفاؤل فى عز المحنة.

انما النلس فما اقساها ما هقساها ما اقساها... بيوجعوك و انت عامل حسابك ان هما دول مصدر قوتك و ربما سبب فرحتك ... بيوجعوك و وجع قوى على قدر غلو مكانتهم عندك و تواضع مكانتك - ان وجدت - عندهم.

"هتعمل ايه لو قمت يوم و لاقيت اقرب ما ليك فى الدنيا مش حواليك " ... و هو مش حواليك بمحض ارادته و اختياره ...  عشان هو شايف ان وجودك فى حياته تماما كعدمه... و ربما عدمه اريح على اية حال

اللى هعمله ... هسكت و هتصدم و مش هستنى حاجة كويسة من حد ... و مش هصدق اى معاملة كويسة ولا هقول على حد طيب...

انا من فترة كنت بقول ان مفيش ناس جديدة هتدخل حياتى ... اللى دخل دخل و خلاص ... المشكلة دلوقتى فى القدام ... هيفضلوا تعبنى كدة لغاية يمتى ؟!!!

Silence is needed sometimes

Have you ever been told to look to yourself in the mirror, when you feel you don't and you know you'll not be pleased seeing the person that will appear in it?


That's exactly what's happening to me, I am forced to answer the simple question of ... "How things are going?" "Are things getting better?"... And the irony is that people are not convinced with a short answer like "el 7amdu lellah”... They need to listen to more than that... They need more details... Some are really worried and they are hoping for a relieving answer... and others are just curious or maybe they're imagining that they're pressing my talk button...


To all these people who care and who do not... Thanks for asking


And I am not rude when I am saying words like... "Please I dun want to talk "... or "just pray" ... or any silly answer of the like.


I dun want to talk about it, I dun want to realize it... I dun want to see it or hear it... isn't that my right?


I am escaping for a while from the worries and the terrible thoughts in my mind... is that too much?


I appreciate my friends who really understands me and appreciate my rights and just stand silent by my side... ready to listen just if I wanted to talk or if they felt it for they know me well ...