miss U dearest

Can't say anything. I feel that I've said all the words before, has been through the same feelings since then, they are not new .. just they are getting stronger and harder and I miss you more dear ...
may God Rest your Soul and peace, and gather us again in Paradise ISA.
Can't end this post.. as I feel that I am with you now while I am sending this post... I feel I am talking to you...
But I dun want to get my feelings out here... that will be so hard... and I know you'll not be happy knowing that I feel these feelings.

6 Years

Miss U SOOOOOOOOO much...Loving u as always....

But missing is not that one that all people say to each other but it's a much much more deeper feeling that I can't express because u r not a part of my life but u are my whole life... the best that I had and never would have again...

I wish that once I showed u how ur true love is inside my heart and I even hope more and more that I proved to u that afterwards.

I miss even calling u and everything... I wish u know it so as to feel how u r someone that deserves nothing but all the care and the love and the respect and the best of all things.

I hope that I was able to provide u with anything useful to u and that could make u happier through the past 6 years
and I promise u ... as I stood with myself today and said that in every year in that day I should be asking myself what did I present to the DEAREST this year...

Really u are the dearest.... I loved no one as I love u ...
I hope that u know what I feel what I can't say and what I cant express

But really.... I can't bear.... el 7amdu lellah....
6 years without u is more than I can bear... and I should even bear for all the coming years of my life... hou would my feelings be like in the coming years? Never Easier....But the moments that I miss u in are increasing year after the other and so the wound in my heart will never heal but it will go deeper... but I HAD TO bear...

Will be always missing ...

The day before yesterday, we were preparing for a very happy event that was going to happen, regardless of the event itself.
I felt that this event, would have cheered, and fell the heart of my dear very much, I kept imagining how she would have been very happy, full of joy, reaping the fruits of her hard working years and all the effort that she'd exerted to take care of this plant, but unfortunately it was not her fate to witness this event, but anyways, thank God, I wish that she's sharing every joyfull moment with us and doesn't feel with us any bad moment that we pass with.

Also, ISA, by the end of this week, a wish that we all have been wishing from a long time, and kept imagining that day and every minor deatil in it, will be fulfilled ISA, I think that there are other Dears that we are be missing veryyyyyyyyy much on that day, those who will forever be missed in evey happy event and also every nin-happy one.

Please Dears, know that ISA, that you will never be missing in any event, because you are in a place that we can't exist without, you're in our hearts, in every photo that we take, your places are reserved, in every gathering we gather in, you're the first ones in.

We can never be apart from you, you're always in our hearts dearies.........miss u, though u are never missed

Oh Allah, please fulfill all my dreams

yesterday I was enjoying work very much, generally starting from this week I became very happy at work because my dear friend Sue, moved her PC and began sitting beside me:)))

Suddenly at the evening my mood changed with no single reason for it to change and I became very upset, and began thinking of many things that worries me and makes me sad, and then I said to myself remember all the gifts you have from God, remember all what you have, or just remember how he saved your father to you and made the operation passes peacefully.

I made so with my mind, but internally I was still uncomfortable, and then a friend of mine came to my mind and I called her as she's travelling in a vaction and I missed her tOoOoO much, just hearing her voice on the phone saying "AlOoOoO", my mood was really changed 180 degress and I began laughing and joking with her, and there was another surprise to me which was our other friend was there too in a vacation my mind faked me and I really fealt as If I was there with them as their third companion and I enjoyed it too much

Then I began ordering my wardrobe, and I was singing many things, then all of a sudden I began Praying, asking God all what I want and not just asking but speaking and speaking loudly I was not just speaking with my my head but with my voice too, I felt relieved afterwards.

On waking up today I found an SMS from my travelling brother saying that he'd seen our mother (God Rests her Soul) giving him many cadeaux to give them to me, I felt then that it's a sign that all my wishes will be fulfilled ISA and my Prayers were heard (Ostegebat ISA)

I Came work today, to find my friends are abscent, but we phoned each others, and I am generally in a good mood I hope it stays for a long while
I hope all my prayers come true