I think that I've finally reached that state of indifference that I was seeking from a long time. But have not been persistent on really reaching it.
I've thought about it a lot and took my decision based upon facts and deeds or misdeeds that have been happening during the past period.
I used to be wondering about the reason behind that weird behavior from some person's side and I kept telling myself... OK I dun want us to be as we once used to be ... But at least I need to understand the reason behind that change.
now I dun care... I am only concerned about the results and the weird behavior and that the change has happened already... and I need to deal with it and get over all the questions that were in mind
And from now on I will be the person in control. I dun mean that I'll control anyone, but at least I'll be controlling myself and will not allow anybody to control me and my mood.
I'll not be that reactive person I once used to be. I'll never be upsetted from any misdeed and I'll never expect something good from that person, if we were to know eachothers again in the first place. And if by mistake something good happened I'll never be happy with it.
I'll not let my mood be sitting on a swing that someone else is controlling all the time.
That person has been moved to the indifference zone, that zone that takes no place neither in my heart nor in my mind.
That zone that's only available as long as the circumstances put that person in my way, and will be cleared as long as that person is away.
Exactly like sitting beside someone in the bus, you may never talk , you may just say hello, and even if you talk with that person a friendly talk, you'll forget everything as soon as you reach your station or that person's leaves.
I am really happy of that state... thank god that I've reached it finally.
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Don't be too happy. Indifference keeps u from getting hurt, but it also keeps u from happiness sometimes.
yes... but indifference will [[only]] be with people that I am not happy with.
How will you control it?
Simply... If for example I make no difference for person X...
Then X also will be moved to the Indifference Zone as well
To tell u the truth, I tried it for about 3 or 4 years now. You know the result? I became numb. totally uninterested and uninteresting. it sucked and now I don't know how to get back to caring...
I think if there existed anybody who deserves letting you out of that Indifference state. There wouldn't be a need for you to wonder "HOW" you can get out of that state. you would have known the answer automatically
okay, i didn't really get that, but I don't think it has anything to do with the outside world. it has to do with you. it's like something in u dies, u know. I wish i can get more personal, but I don't think u'll like it and that's not the place for it anyway.
I understand and am happy for you u finally found your peace and also saved urself.... turthfully no one deserves your care if they're not that into you , really no one deserves your precious time and energy to be wasted on them because simply they're the wrong person. :)
Exactly Rain :)... that's what I really both think and feel and that's what I am talking about here in this post
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